是你？還是另外一個他？

不敢奢想改變你　　林憶蓮

靠近你　抱著你　不敢信這是突然運氣
吻著你　有種特殊心理
明明祈求可共你　一起　
卻總閃過顧忌
如今又卻竟不會躲避

其實我不算自卑　
真的很在乎你
你所給我的歡喜　
我將謹慎收起
明白你習慣像鳥在追夢而飛
沒法生根於這地　
不敢奢想　改變你

我是我　你是你　
孤單看似世上自然定理
愛得起　我卻飛不起
只可以長期思念你　
跟你　那些溫暖氣味
如果沒法子可心死

其實我不算自卑　
真的很在乎你
你所給我的歡喜　
我將謹慎收起
無謂去自怨自騙地等待時機
在那一天捉緊你　做夢距離
從不可比　誰可比　
抱緊真實的你
愛就是　形影不離　
那管天地妒忌
其實這種激戀　絕對不羈
沒有想過會終於　交給你　
不悲更喜

這刻清清楚楚　統統都屬於你
你所給我的歡喜　
我將謹慎收起
明白你習慣像鳥在追夢而飛
沒法生根於這地　
不敢奢想　改變你
完全奉獻　
終於這天　
變了是我

2nd anniversary of landing on England 首達英倫兩周年

2年前的今天, 我隻身一人, 離開香港, 來到自少夢寐以求的英倫, 完成我的大學學位.

two years ago, i left hong kong to England, the country which i have dreamt of years, for finishing my bachelor degree.

moo @ london's king's cross station up to the North - Berwick upon Tweed for the archaeological excavation training, just right after landing. (20040726)

你的心靈力量有多偉大？快來探索你的「生命靈數」！

你是一個講究均衡的人，個性不會太衝動 (唔係喎, 我覺得自己幾衝動)，不管在人際上，生活上和工作上，凡事都喜歡按部就班慢慢來，並且保持一種均衡狀態。當然你也有自己的一套方法，不喜歡受人牽制，感情也是一樣。　　

你很重視合作關係，希望找到氣味相投的伴侶，不一定是感情上的伴侶，也有可能是旗鼓相當的工作夥伴，雖然工作夥伴不見得對你有很大的實質助力，但是在生命的歴程中，有這種夥伴的陪同，更能加強自信心，填補精神的空虛，創造生命的幸福與成功。(等梗....)　

你的生命目標是重視學以致用，以及發揮自己的才能和特質，因此你適合是一個專注研究學習的人，但不一定當一輩子的學者，只要能夠學以致用就很圓滿了。(中!) 提醒你無論是學習、思考或研究，如何能夠發揮所學的長才，將理論落實到實際上，才是你的生命目標喔！　　

你的個性特徵是比較內斂、沉穩，常常一個人在思考，然後會編出自己的一套理論、想法，或是一套原則，因此很適合研究一些規則性的東西 (越大越係咁) 你其實不是不喜歡和人說話，只是當你在思考的時候不會去管到別人，因此有時在別人眼中是個常常自言自語的怪人喔！　　

你的優點是處事很有原則，並且非常的理性，思考非常細膩 (又唔算係, 唔係都唔會以前俾人'丙'到暈!)，並且可以用不同的表現方式讓別人明白。你的缺點是有時候不太能夠變通，執著於自己的想法，不會主動去關心別人 (我邊理到咁多人???!!!)，也不太會與人相處，常常情緒無法抒發，是個學者型的人。　　

建議你多多練習人際關係，比如針對不同年齡的對象用不同的方式去溝通，並且讓彼此都能接受，傳達彼此的感情與訊息，要知道他人的反應是自己的一面鏡子喔，你可以從周遭人的反應來調整自己，讓自己更受人歡迎。　　

你的人生運勢蠻平穩的，通常是比較孤獨的一個人，因為你比較重視頭腦裡面的東西，以及穩定的生活，並且會靜靜等待發揮的時機，如果你的好時機一到，所學的東西就能夠通通發揮出來。那是因為你缺少主動積極創造運勢的衝勁，因此在你進入職場工作以後，升遷、升級都要等待幸運之神的降臨了。　　

你的天賦潛能就是研究精神和學習能力，因此不論是那一種新科技或那一個專業領域，你都能夠學有所成，並且學以致用。

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又真係幾準....冇計, 天生就係一個學者 -- 熊仔博士

我愛"酒凹"王

我一直沒有留意自己真正喜歡哪一類的人. 喜歡,並不一定等於'愛'. 不過最近發現自己原來對有一雙'梨渦淺笑'的'酒凹'人特別有好感.

回想以前喜歡過的人,原來他們多有'酒凹'. 明星亦一樣. 雖然我的契媽madonna是沒有一雙迷人的梨渦!

以前上英文課,老師教"酒凹"的英文. 我當然沒有記在心,只記得她找例子找著我, 她說: Moody就有"酒凹"......我自己一直也沒有發現....

不過,最近的心儀對象好像沒有"酒凹"的.....well....

其實我愛自己多些

myself

20060711 night+full moon+musky

After returning home from England, today is the date that i have already settled for 9 months. I dunno why that i found myself lost of energy for working, even playing. Everything for me is tasteless and fucking boring. But it doesn't mean that i don't laugh. I always smile and laugh. However, i found my life in 2006 is wasting as shit.

I wanna scream, i wanna escape from this city. I hate being here no matter whom i did really care of. Everything is meaningless to me.

If 1587 was "a year of no significance" in Chinese History, 2006 is "a year of fuckimg boring" in my life. I'd rather to end my life now whatever the future will be.

Life seems to run smooth, everything seems to go right. What am I thinking of? Why someone's shadow always follow me as a ghost? Why I laugh but i don't feel really happy? Why I am not satified with everything i have already had? Am I too ambious? Why I hate people on street even they are totally strangers? What's wrong am I??!!

sorry everyone. I dunno why i have such anger and unpatience at the moment. I cannot lie; i cannot cry. Perhaps, i'm getting old and understand that time fles too fucking fast.

Forgive my rudeness. I am not usually a foul-language person.

I will be alright after a good sleep.


Madonna - X-Static Process

I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Don't know what I believe

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too
I always wished that I could find someone as talented as you
But in the process I forgot that I was just as good as you

S+M Bday K-Party

20060708 sunny + occasionally rain

I have not celebrated (party thing) my birthday for over 10 years. 'cos i found that there's nothing special for celebrate if my life will not be too short. But i am so glad that my friends (my old buddy and new Cali gals) celebrating my 28th (yes!!!) Bday with me in this boring 2006. my Bday is on 11th and Steph's on 23rd.

After having lunch with my good old friend, Jo, I returned home for a while preparing the crazy K-party. Thanks to Steph (another birthday girl), Jada (our MaMa), Jenny, Nike, May, Billy (Mr. Fisheye), Sammi (HK MickJack), Vivian. Our crazy dress code was shirt+tie+shorts (or skirt).

i love you all!!

made wish(es). like a prayers.
well, my bday gift - a jade necklance (made by greenish flour)
May, Nike, Jenny, Jada, Moo, Steph, V, Sammi, Billy
cheers - yam sing!
phantom & MickJack (well, Steph did make TV ad for TVB promoting the Phantom of the Opera)
what song were we singing??!!
star!

photos: http://public.fotki.com/moodytang/friends/cali_gals/200607_sm_bday_party/