一家之主

一家之主 何韻詩

期望做一家之主 怎麽可能並無代價
無人夜高歌一曲 彷佛君臨自己天下
從未怕 沒有他 我的家 圍著花
若有一位愛人更香嗎

嘉賓都不斷到訪 猶如攤位開放
有哪個欣賞我的孤芳
愛便來 怕著往 從沒有代客落糖
怕聽我吩咐的 來日別拜訪

一堆堆堅硬罐頭 午晚早餐都夠
貓狗都跟緊我的小手
我練琴 我睡覺 無伴侶便有自由
哪一個分了手 難下令我走

我永遠要做個主人(一屋都等我亮燈)
貴客要接受我質問(怎麽通宵還未訓)
要是誰 難捱如我(誰難捱如我)
還攜同甜品(攜同甜品)
我不怕多個人 來入住我心

期望做一家之主 怎麽可能並無代價
無人夜高歌一曲 彷佛君臨自己天下
從未怕 沒有他 我的家 圍著花
若要聽取客人訓話 家不似家

期望做一家之主 怎麽可能並無代價
無人夜高歌一曲 彷佛君臨自己天下
從未怕 沒有他 我的家 圍著花
但我都想有人對話假使有人對話
燈泡跌爛也不怕


弟弟matt想裝修自己的房間, 我想擁有自己的家....

rainy days & Mondays always make me down

20060227 misty+cold+windy = rainy days & Mondays always make me down

因為要準備到cityu interview, 昨晚睡前讀了一會’實用文寫作’,怕中文寫作生疏了,要出洋相.

星期一是一個星期最難過的一天,星期天晚上多數是睡不了,又睡不好,早上醒來最是痛苦. 一連四堂的課,喉嚨已不太舒適. 現在我己不跟他們計較,這是他們’與生俱來’的本能 – 高談闊論,所以我也只好隨他們所好,他們一說話,我就閉嘴,等他們醒覺時,我才再開始,免得害了自己白生氣…

完成第八節就離開,臨走前到校務處取支票…yeah

到cityu也差不多1600,等了10分鐘就到我了. 三個directors都很友善,其中human resources的director跟我說welcome back,因為我是舊生. Interview時間大約20分鐘,我沒有想手錶,只是覺得談了很久很久. 最後那個director問我今年看了什麼英文書, 我說: Dan Brown的da vinci code和angels & demons, David Gibbins的atlantis,上星期讀完Oscar Wilde的a woman of no importance. 我覺得他頗impressed,又問我怎看da vinci code….我覺得像大學入學試多於見工interview. 接著就是1小時的written test,兩條題目都是以前cuhk的工作範圍,我也沒有多思考,因為都是’手板眼見功夫’.

之後上了麗音老師跟她說剛才interview的事,我說信心是有的,但都不大期望. 打電話給Myra,她說written test’開正我個範’.

回家很累,很累. 朋友+博物館同事Ringo打來說明午我的偶像前輩冼玉儀博士於中央圖書館有個關於東華三院的講座. 真有點不知所措,因為原本要去indoor cycling,但時間太緊迫,只好完了講座後趕去boxing,之後約了Jacq,Har和Kylie吃晚飯. 難得可以約到所有人,所以樂意赴會.
天氣灰灰濕濕的,令人有點提不起勁.

代課妹手記 - 心灰意冷

20060126-0224 天天都是這樣經過 - 灰

差不多一個月沒有寫'代課妹手記', 其實, 每日的經過都差不多, 沒有什麼特別事, 太陽之下無新事...學校之內無趣事....

第三四個星期, 實在是太'勞氣'了....所以....不開心的事太想再多提了.

曾經認為自己不中用, 短短幾星期就氣餒了. 我沒有對自己的人生感到無助, 而是對香港未來的社會棟樑失望...香港將來就會像我今天看見的狀況嗎? 真是那麼多年青人是垃圾? 還是世世代代都是一樣: 一代不如一代. 其實我們做學生時, 老師大有可能對我們都是覺得'睇唔順眼'!!

之前跟陳麗音老師和羅婉薇老師閒聊, 我說不想將我所見的年青人的人數和程度放大, 因為香港還有其他可為的學生, 不是全部都是如斯不振....是我太樂觀嗎? 還是我看得太片面?

朋友都勸我別為這些學生生氣, 因為他們不值得我這樣勞神動氣. 蔡老師亦曾說過'對他們有expectation, 是不切實際'...是我太天真, 還是太認真?

孔夫子說'有教無類', 我亦曾經抱這心態, 但我知道一個現實: 嘥心機捱眼睏. 對不起孔夫子, 我做不到!

星期一要到cityu見工, 有可能又回到大學校院....所以將來的工作或多或少離不開教育界, 即使是在博物館工作, 都是一種教育大眾的工作.

教學相長 - 我也在這幾星期從2006年的學生身上學到不少, 亦令我回望十年前的自己: 我是個怎樣的人? 過著怎樣的生活? 有怎麼的人生?

還是要感謝以前的每位老師.

遊蕩

前陣子, 恩師蔡筱曼老師說我最想做的職業是'全職遊蕩', 我起初否認, 因為我認為自己是個'心懶身不懶'的人, 一向我對手上的工作, 雖然不能說'做到一百分', 但都全力以赴.

但自從英國回來之後, 我真的有點想做'全職遊蕩', 當然可以做freelance更好. 完全不做工作, 在廿一世紀的物質+消費主導的香港, 有點說不通, 而且, 真的會悶.

但如果有一天, 果真可以做個無憂的'全職遊蕩' (條件就是有無限的錢和時間):
星期一至五
0900 起床沖個靚涼吃早餐
1000 飲杯english breakfast讀報閱雜誌
1100 安排是日活動
1200 到圖書館 (如果在讀什麼master課程) / 在中上環書店蕩蕩蕩
1330 到學校canteen吃lunch, 又或者每日約不同的朋友到他們公司附近吃
1500 又回到圖書館 / 在什麼gallery museum蕩蕩蕩
1630 gym
2000 約不同朋友吃飯, 又或者自己回家, 邊睇dvd邊吃
2230 沖個靚bath
2330 睇書
0030 睏

星期六
1000 起床沖個靚涼
1100 飲杯english breakfast讀報閱雜誌
1200 brunch
1600 四處蕩
1700 飲杯咖啡睇本書
1900 搵地方搵食
2100 clubbing? 又或者叫朋友開house party
0100 沖個靚bath
0200 睏

星期日
1100 起床沖個靚涼
1200 brunch
1500 四處蕩
1700 飲杯咖啡睇本書
1900 自己煮
2100 睇電視/dvd
2300 沖個靚bath
0000 睏

哈哈, 一大清早就發夢....真是沒有改錯名 :)

duty

20060220 cool + cloudy

"duty is what one expects from others, it is not what one does one's self" by Oscar Wilde in A Woman of No Importance 1893

mr. friendly

20060220 cold + cloudy

中學時代做過很多瘋狂事, 不過回想起來, 其實都不是什麼....全是芝麻綠豆小事

唸中學時, 零用錢不是很多, 但總算夠日常使用. 我跟舊友凱怡是'兩個孿生'. 一天, 她買了一個紫紅色的mr. friendly背包回來, 因為我倆誓要做kts的'潮人', 永遠要快人一步, 我翌日也買了一個橙色的.....兩個colourful的mr. friendly, 常常並肩坐在操場.....友誼也天天增長......

但mr. friendly始終是'潮物', 經不起時間考驗...我倆用了幾個月之後, 就將mr. friendly放在一旁....中學畢業之後, 我倆也沒有多見了.

今天在清理床底的時候, 再看這個沒有變的橙色的mr. friendly, 但心情, 已經不同.

另外一個小小藍色的mr. friendly盒子, 也忘了是用來盛什麼....

不知mr. friendly會不會有一天再流行?!

magic moment - standard chartered marathon 10k run

20060212 sunny+warm=wonderful

magic moment對我來說, 一生出現過好幾次: 曾經跟某人在其家中,倚窗外眺,靜靜的相處了幾分鐘, 這是2000年的magic moment; 一個人在英國街頭浪盪, 享受一個人的獨處時間, 這是2004年的magic moment; 今天是另一個magic moment.

雖然預定0530出門, 但最後竟是弟弟Matt叫醒我, 最後0540才起身, 不知是太緊張, 或是太累, 竟然「一睡不起」！當在火車時,唯有吃個power bar充餓, 再細閱一次那些資料, 因為我已經太遲了, 到尖沙咀時, 那些行理車很有可能已經走了. 一下車, 一個箭步跑到近duty free的臨時後備行理車, 因為那輛26號已經走了. 又花了5分鐘, 熱身跑到彌敦道時, 其實已經開跑了. 我是最後那班出發的, 更枉說要跟林pat和春兒會合…

但怎可以就此落後!! 唯有「逢人過人」迎頭趕上. 用了大約20分鐘跑到西區隧道口, 差不多趕過了1/3人, 也跑了4公里. 是時候入隧道了. 但開始發覺肚子痛, 我知道有麻煩了, 但只好跟自己說'跑快啲!跑快啲!'

自覺隧道內的空氣不是十分差, 落「暗斜」可以稍加速. 但在隧道中段開始有點憊, 只好絡自己兩分鐘休息(並不是停在一邊har, 而是急步行). 很多參賽者因為都累了, 所以大家都慢了, 是最好時候抖抖.

到了上天橋,見到旭日初昇(其實已經0745了). 走在天橋看見橙太陽在高聳的大樓中間, 很美, 可惜我沒有帶相機和電話, 未能拍下當下的美景. 不過也好, 因為身上什麼重金屬都沒有, 身體輕得多, 而且可以更專心.

過了信德中心, 再落在jardine house出面的短隧道, 差不多到金鐘, 灣仔會展中心已經在望. 突然間很想停一兩分鐘休息, 但另一邊又跟自己說不能停, 終點就在前面....不能停

在演藝學院拐彎, 以為直路到會展, 怎知還有一段約200米的u-turn...最後500米全力跑....終於在01:08完成賽事(根據手錶)...wow.....

其實衝線和完成之後, 沒有想得太多, 只是告訴自己'終於攪掂啦!'

pal & moo after finishing the 10k run

之後在鷹君中心見到vball 友 pal, dennis, 石同龍仔. 我一個人先在室內運動場交還計時器和稍事休息再到灣仔運動場取'包袱'. 在mcdonold等了林pat跟她的朋友半小時, 真的等到發霉, 加上身上有不少鹽粒(因為大量出汗後的結果). 之後春兒加入我們, 在麥當當坐到1045.

我跟春兒坐船到尖沙咀califonia洗澡....正

弟弟Matt用了04:04完成全馬拉松....welldone!

查閱official time, 是01:10:08

我想起loneliness of the long distance runner這齣戲.

today, i have my magic moment. i used 2.5 months to train up myself for the 10km marathon. it was a wonderful experience to challenge myself and finished the race within expectation (1 hour 15 mins). Even it was not fun to rush to the meeting point in the early morning and been late for 1/2 hour, i still kept paces and chased the main group within 30 mins.

The scenes in the journay were so nice and the red sun rised between the skyscrapers.

Thanks Mom to cook the 'feets soup' for Matt and I. My dear bro Matt spent 4hours 4 mins to finish the full marathon. Welldone, Matt!

The official time of my record is 01:10:08. I will join the race in 2007 and wish to finish within 1 hour.

we are always CRAZY

let's jump!!













i'm a super model, shotting for magazine cover, yeah!






whatcha we doing in the anphitheathre?!

hide & seek, where chaya Lamyee?

we are all crazy, always!

flower blooming

















see, i am the coolest one

this is the only 'regular' photo taken at the 56th floor.

one of my old dreams..

i love sports.

my favourite sport was basketball. i was in the team when i was in primary school (P.5-6), secondary school (S.3) and the university of Portsmouth (2004-5).

i always dreamed to be a basketball player, even though i am short. but i must say, i played quite well and very hard. in my memories, i spent 3-4 hours on practising everyday when i was in primary school and 1-2 hours everyday in secondary school time.

however, when i grew up (especially in teenage), i realized that it was only a dream that i would never reach the goal. not because i was not confident, but it is a fate that i didn't have such intelligence and ability to become a professional backetball player.

in Portsmouth, i was happy to play in the school team no matter i was the shortest one. i enjoyed the trainings and games with the other schools and always proud of joining the u team in the foreign country.

right now, i play tennis, boxing, volleyball, badminton instead of basketball.

it was wonderful to play with the boys and they treated me as fair as a boy. i was almost the only girl in the court. sometimes in the KTS alumni meeting, the boys always called me "tai jump jei - sis of big needle". i had such a reputation in the KTS basketball history.

those were my heydays, i remember.

i miss you much.....england

just called my friend, Lucy, for confirming the delivery address. it was so nice to talk to her via long-distanced phone. sometime, i do appreciate the technology which provides fast and convenient communication.

learnt that Leu (my boss) will re-open the tea rooms tomorrow. i do really miss the icy weather in england and the fun time while working with the gals.













from left: old gentleman Alec, Lucy, Moo, Vian (20050703)














Leu and Moo (20051008)

it sounds a bit sad that i am not eligible to apply for the scholarship and lost a chance to be back to England in coming March. well, i am looking forward to 2007.

i miss you all!! i want to come back to England!!

happy chinese new year - year of the doggie

this was a quite quiet chinese new year (again!). dad + mom went to mainland china for a short vacation. thus, Matt and i went to auntie Cherry's home for the new-year-eve dinner (20060129) .















from left: auntie Cecilia, auntie Cherry, bb Ainsley, Matt, Mrs + Mr Chan (uncle Allen's parents), Moo, Thomas (uncle Allen's brother-in-law), bb Brian, Candy (uncle Allen's sis)







crazy Matt and Moo (do we look alike?)





i just stayed at home on the 1st day of the chinese new year (so weird!!). we had a big meal for the 2nd day (day of "open year", 20060131) at auntie Celine's home. it was so great!!! uncle Allen and I had a full belly but we still wanted ice-cream for dessert :)
















from left: bb Ainsley, auntie Cherry, Julia, Moo, Laura

the chinese new year, in this generation, seemed to be very different with the one in 10 years ago. i can see the difference, especially after some family changes. I used to like this occasion when i was still a child. but right now, i have no special feeling about it and would prefer to stay at home alone.

stamp collecting (philatelic)

stamps collecting is a time-consuming hobby, and it will cost you some money as well. I have started collecting stamps when i was really young. then I stopped for several years. But i restarted this hobby again as i had so-called a financial ability in high school time.

Among friends, i am seemed the only one who collects stamps seriously. It always makes me like an 'old biscuit'. young people would prefer to go out instead of doing such boring stuff, for example, stamps collecting!

I, actually, collect the British stamps and some specified themes in Archaeology, History, Architecture, Arts. Some collectors are lazy as i do, only catalogue the stamps by themes, countries, years etc. and not organize them into the albums. I only have one huge box file to put the British one which was designed by myself (its cover looked like a fashion magazine). Well, as I said, stamps collecting is time-consuming and you will never have enough time.

Besides, money is another essential issue (the amount will be depends on your own choice) on buying annual catalogues, albums, tools, and of course, STAMPS, no matter they are used or mint. I did not count how much money i spent. Not much but not less. When i was in England, i went to the Notting Hill market to buy a batch of unsorted stamps. You can imagine sometime you go the place where you are not familiar with and get something unexpected amazing. It was a treasure-hurt and those filled my main collection.

In England, I started collecting British mini-sheets (小全張). Mini-sheet is a bit expensive than the normal stamp set but it has special design and provide a feeling of completeness!! I used to collect First-day Cover (首日封) when i was still a kid . but they are too big (like a envelope) and it was trouble to get one as you have to go to the post office on designated date.....i hated it!!

Hong Kong Post always does the good job as the stamps they issued were in the high quality and its reliable delivery service.

Okay, let me introduce the following philatelic items:

one of the basic items for collecting stamp, annual catalogue (Stanley Gibbons is the oldest company in England)

This is the First-day Cover. Mostly, the FDC contains a sheet of information. Even I don't collect FDC, this one is my favourite.

Besides of the FDCs and mini-sheets, Presentation Pack is another choice. Its size as big as a normal envelope but it is folded and contains much more information. I only have few PPs as my long-term philatelic friend, Sandra Leather, sent them to me. Or someone else?!

This is a 'huge' mini-sheet as big as a normal envelope, issued in 2003.

This is my most favourite mini-sheet which i bidded from Ebay.

Correios de Macau (澳門郵政) issues beautiful mini-sheets as well. Most of them are about Macau local history and architecture.

special postmarks in 2002

Today, i found few un-soaped stamps in the cabinet and i started sorting the stamps which i collected in those several years.

Why i write this message?? 'cos i love collecting stamps and telling people that i am really an 'old biscuit'!! no matter people say, this hobby makes me proud :) if you have some unwanted stamps, please kindly give them to me.